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RAZORLAND OH RAZORLAND, YOU BRING ME SUCH DELIGHT

RAZORLAND OH RAZORLAND YOU HELP ME WIN A FIGHT

I KNOW I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON YOU

TO HELP ME WHEN I'M NOT MISSED

WHEN NO ONE REALLY LOVES ME

YOU'LL BE THERE WATCHING OVER ME, RAZORLAND OH RAZORLAND

YOU NEVER TELL ME LIES, RAZORLAND OH RAZORLAND. YOU MAKE ME FEEL ALIVE

WHEN LIFE IS JUST TOO MUCH, I KNOW YOU WILL BE THERE, JUST SO I CAN CALM.

RAZORLAND OH RAZORLAND, YOU HELPED ME ALL ALONG. RAZORLAND OH RAZORLAND

FOR YOU I WRITE THIS SONG, RAZORLAND OH RAZORLAND

YOU ARE THE WORST BEST FRIEND, RAZORLAND OH RAZORLAND, I'LL REGRET YOU IN THE END

YOU'VE COVERED ME WITH SCARS, PASSED OUT BECAUSE I BLED

  I HATE YOU SO MUCH, RAZORLAND

BECAUSE OF YOU I'M DEAD. 

 

  êêêêêê

Going to a better place--Might see you there.

 

Natasha/(Palaroid)

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Now I lay me down to sleep But up the stairs I hear him creepI am not awake, I am not awake

Please God let him pass my door, Or pass out drunk, fall to the floor. My eyes are shut, I hear the sound, Of heavy footsteps all around

I smell the spirits on his breath, And wonder when my spirit left. And pray that if my eyes stay closed

It will be a nightmare, nothing more.

Oh give me some new hiding place A door to hide my fall from grace To hide my shame, a brand new face

And take away this touch and taste.

My sheets are stained, my soul is worse. My body still, inside I curse. My fear, my hate, my helplessness

The bile behind this sordid tenderness.

Oh give me some new hiding place. A door to hide my fall from grace. To hide my shame, a brand new face

And take away this touch and taste.

I AM NOTAWAKE. . .

I AM NOTAWAKE. . .

I AM NOTAWAKE. . .

Natasha/(Palaroid)

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•I'm so s ick   of sitting   under my steel-grey  sky•

And the sun never quite shines.

Where the darkness plays another foul game. Hide and seek with the light of day.

Failure’s all that can be felt in my land of make believe.

 It’s no good wishing, preying, hoping. You’re never gonna leave another love lost

Another foundation fallen...

I can’t quite wander through my fields of glass

‘cause of the splinters and shards Murky mask of calm, I can see the cracks

Pale hearts exposed

Where goodness only knows. Failure’s all that can be felt in my land of make believe.

It’s no good wishing, preying, hoping. You’re never gonna leave another love lost

Another foundation fallen...

There’s no use in pacing beneath a silver sun. Madness lurks just below the surface

Where has our sanity gone? Tear tracks on a lonely face of pallor.

They left her chipped and broken.

 Failure’s all that can be felt in my land of make believe.

It’s no good wishing, preying, hoping

You’re never gonna leave another love lost

Another foundation fallen...

 Sugar can’t you see, There’s no such thing as leaving.

 My land of make believe. Another not-quite-hospital

Where there’s not a cure. For every ailing disease.

Failure’s all that can be felt in my land of make believe.

It’s no good wishing, preying, hoping.

 You’re never gonna leave another love lost

Another foundation fallen...

Natasha/(Palaroid)

 

 

I used  to cry myself to sleep every night...

CRIED FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS. IT HELPED ME FEEL ALRIGHT. BUT NOW I'M SO DEAD INSIDE. IT TAKES ME WEEKS TO SHED A TEAR. IT TAKES HORRID THOUGHTS TO CRY. AND WHEN I CRY, IT ENDS SO QUICKLY. NOTHING FEELS RIGHT. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN DEPRESSED. BUT NOW I'M A LITTLE MORE STRESSED. AND THERE'S NOTHING REALLY WRONG WITH ME. EXCEPT MAYBE EVERYTHING. I USED TO EAT AN OKAY AMOUNT. BUT NOW I NEARLY STARVE MYSELF. AND MY BODY'S ACHING FROM THE PAIN IT CREATES. BUT I'M NEVER HUNGRY. I HAVE TO FORCE FOOD TO MY FACE. MY LEGS FEEL AS IF THEY WILL COLLAPSE. FROM WHAT I'VE EATEN, THE FEW SCRAPS. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN DEPRESSED. BUT NOW I'M A LITTLE MORE STRESSED. AND THERE'S NOTHING REALLY WRONG WITH ME. EXCEPT MAYBE EVERYTHING. FOR A LITTLE WHILE I WANTED TO BE ME. I WORE WHAT I WANT SO EVERYONE WOULD SEE. BUT NOW I JUST FEEL SO DEAD INSIDE. IN ORDER TO GET BY, I NEED TO HIDE. SO NOW I WANT TO BLEND IN. HIDE AWAY IF I DECIDE TO COMMIT SIN. I WAS HIDDEN AWAY, IN MY OWN WORLD, DARK AND GRAY. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN DEPRESSED BUT NOW I'M A LITTLE MORE STRESSED AND THERE'S NOTHING REALLY WRONG WITH ME. EXCEPT MAYBE EVERYTHING. WELL IT DOESN'T HELP AT ALL. THAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE. I ALWAYS SEEM TO FALL. AND IT ALWAYS SEEMS TO GET WORSE.

 

Natasha/(Palaroid)